My Near Death Experience

Last week, Marshall and I sat down to relax one evening.  I was snacking on some Oregon hazelnuts and laughing about how it would be best to show Marshall all my deep, dark shadow aspects once and for all... and get it over with. We have been observing this amongst ourselves and many others—everyone's shadows are surfacing to be cleared and Truth is unveiled.

The next thing I knew I could feel the dry hazelnuts caught in my throat. I went to the kitchen and drank water. Nothing. I couldn't breathe! I coughed, patted my chest. Nothing changed. I couldn't breathe. I gestured to Marshall to come in the kitchen and try the Heinlick Maneuver. He did a gentler version of it because I was still coughing and it didn't seem like it was the right way to go. He gave me more water. Nothing. I started pacing the kitchen, going outside, spraying myself with aromatherapy... all to get just one breathe. Just one.

I still couldn't breathe. Is this it! I could die right now. I haven't had a breathe for what seemed like a very long time. I don't want to die with Marshall trying to help me this way. I'm not really to go at all.

Somehow I was able to communicate to Marshall. Call 911. I realized he was pacing around and didn't really know what to do! So he called.

A moment later, I rubbed my sternum in a few places and the chewed nut moved out of my airway passage. I started to get my breathe back again. The volunteer crew from 911 arrived and gave me some oxygen and checked my blood pressure. (They said not to use the Heinlick Maneuver if someone is coughing.)

Maybe my biggest shadow was fear of DEATH?

I am one of those people who do NOT need to experience the full mystical experience of a Near Death Experience. I have plenty of mystical experiences all the time. I like to learn gently. But I DID need to recognize that I don't need to fear death—even when I really want to live! We are always so close. A breathe away from passing to the Spirit realms.

Now I can laugh again, without any nuts involved, and say that dying by laughing too hard is not a bad way to go... when it's time.

I am sooooo grateful for each breath and for the AIR elementals.

Thank you. I honor the Spirit of AIR!